Life ain't good for me recently, really hope it gets better. Sleepless nights and those thinking, whats got into me? Helplessly falling deeper and deeper, but what to do? This is me, i am always like this. Trying to hold myself back, trying to get a grip of myself, trying. I understand friends are there for me, but sometimes, it doesn't help, not even a single bit. I see myself, behaving this way for the next few years, not joking, i really will. And i realized, i am not as strong as what i think i am, i am far more fragile then i can ever imagine, i always thought i will be ready for everything, but i am wrong, very very wrong.