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hi guys(; lessons as per normal , nothing much , went for english choice then art extended lesson , walk back with 4e4 peeps , they are ever so funny lahs , we are hell of a bunch of jokers when we are together , LOLS , hmmms , lets see , nicolas split his pants while doing double turning , andy with that AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH noise , lols , making me laugh like a mad dog , losing my image , well , im ugly anyway , so nevermind de ! haas , tomorrow is friday , WHICH MEANS ! i get to learn electric guitar from andy , YEAHS ! haas , electric guitar , here i come !

day by day ,
night by night ,
you revolve around my mind ,
this time not kelyn ,
but you , the one i need and want ,
but also , i cant get you ,
and i know i never will get you ,
goodbye my love , 我的爱人再见

hi guys(: after school dont have choice , so went to vista to have lunch with kw and aisyah (:
went home at about 3+ slack till now -.- going to go do my art soon , awwww man ! friday come quick lahs ! i waana play andy's electric guitar , I AM ADDICTED TO IT ALREADY LAHS ! ROARS ! friday come quick please !

i need you in my life ,
but i cant get you by my side ,
i am still living under someone's
shadow , i wish i can get out soon .
i long for love );
but it never came through , to me .

hi guys(: had geo test today , last minute changed to open book test , lesson went on as per normal , after school went oo to art choice , had hell lots of fun ! then went to maths program at 5 , had fun there too (: it seems whenever im with 4e4 peeps , fun will never have a end ! went home after that , and watch tv till now (: gonna go do art soon , haas ! seeya people ! jiayous for olevels !

i realize , slowly ,
im getting into it deeper
and deeper , cannot
control it , or stop it.
maybe its because of my
negative thinkings bahs .

hi guys(: just reached home not long ago (: went to catch The Dark Knight with nic , hl , andy and arsyad , movies was nice (: hmmms , today school was as usual , but i was rather moody , cause suddenly think of some things (: well , nothing much for today , just that there is geo test tomorrow , gonna go study , seeya peoples ! bye !

i long for love ,
but it never came ,
no matter now much i wants it ,
i guess , it will never come
to me , maybe because
im too coward ? i
guess so . but what can i do ?
nothing .

hi guys(: went to ktv in the morning , its been long since i went there with friends (: sang for 3 hours , voice abit rusty le , hahas . then darrion and me accompanied wenshen to 888 and cut his hair . they went to my house to study after that (: revised about 7 chapters of physics , then we started chatting already
oh ya , dickson and hweeliang joined us halfway through (: went to 888 and had dinner with them , then they came back up to my house , watched elektra and fearless , and they went home after that . now here am i blogging (: alright , seeya guys in school bahs , bbyes !

i need courage ,
to tell you how i think ,
to do things to prove
something to you .
but i cant , cause
i lack of confidence and courage ,
maybe and perhaps ,
i should stop having this kind of wishful thinking ):

hi guys(: just reach home not long ago , tired lahs dey ! haas , had a fun day today (: was fooling around while doing art with 4e4-ers , gonna sleep soon now , tomorrow ktv ! woohoo ! long time since i go ktv already , finally ! (: alright guys , seeya guys in school (:

i should stop thinking
about those things ,
cause in reality , i know
somethings can never
happen , so , i should
just give up bahs . hais .

hi guys(: short day in school today , till 12.30 only (: decided to catch dark knight with classmates , but went to andy's house before that cause we have decided to watch the 6pm show , went to his house , played ps3 , lmaos , play guitar hero till so high , all of them were head banging , hahas , went to causeway , when we were going to buy the ticket , they found out that the $6 promotion is only valid for shows before pm , so they decided not to watch today , went back to andy's house , they played ps3 , while i was learning how to play electric guitar from andy :b manage to learn a little , andy told me i was progressing very fast , haas , but still , im a noob :b sort of have interest in electric guitar le , haas , alright bahs , gonna sleep le , need to meet 6am at cwp tomorrow ~!@#$%^&*()_+

sometimes i have things
to tell you , but i just cant
say it out , i have no answer
to that , perhaps i should
keep it forever to myself ?
maybe thats the best bahs .

hi guys(: had soccer match today , last year's 3E vs. last year 3N , we lost but no big deal (: only that i played very bad :x well , was tired after the match luhs , but went to grandma's house to have dinner with her (: cooked with her , ahhas , went home , showered , lazed on the sofa watch tv , and just finished playing games with nic , have school tomorrow , so gonna sleep soon , alright then , see ya guys in school (:

maybe from others , u may think
that i am good , people say so , but
do you really understand me ?
know what kind of person i am?
dont say i am good , cause i know i am not .

hi guys(: celebrated mr billy's birthday today , happy belated birthday mr billy (: had cake during maths lesson so as to sort of skip maths :b went to maths 2-hour program after school , and then walked home with hl , was alone at home like always and suddenly thought of alot of things , both good and bad . alright guys , seeya in school (:

no matter how much
i desire for love , it
will never make its way to
me , why is it like this ?

hi guys(: went to watch hellboy2 with classmates , damn funny and fun with them (: haas , the movie was great , went to grandmother's house for dinner after that (: now im blogging lahs , gonna sleep soon i guess (: alright then , see you guys in school (:

P.S ohhhhhh , i cant smile without you ~ ahahhhhhhs !

hi guys(: had 3e4'07 soccer match ! woooooooooooooooots ! F*CKING SHIOK CAN? LOLS ! see old classmates , coming together for a match , makes me miss the times where we bully teachers and also disturbing each other ! and now im like freaking tired , down with fever and flu ): haas , alright then , shall end here , have to wake up early tomorrow (: seeya guys in school (:

maybe with more time i will
be able to get closer to you?
and slowly from there ,
maybe i will get my chance ?
i dont know , let fate decide .

hi guys (: awww shit mans , i have been having a flu for past 3 days , and now i am down with fever , how great right ? lols , anyway , school as per normal today , gonna go prepare for tomorrow soccer match , woots ! 3e4'07 i miss them lahs ;( guys jy for match tomorrow !

im sorry , but i am used to
keeping things to myself ,
and suffer alone .

sometimes , i really do envy alot people . i envy people who has good relationship with their family , i envy those that are good at studies , i envy those who have someone they love beside them , shower their love one with love , and also being showered with love , sometimes i tell myself , one day i will be able to get this , but it seems now , day by day , it just gets further and further , my family is really cold , real cold , everyday i reach home i am all alone , wheres the warmth i should get in my sweet home ? studies , i am deproving alot in my most confidence subject , maths ,this few days i tend to doze off in class , its beginning to be like sec3 , and olevels are coming , i wanna buck up , but i just don't have the determination , as for love , numb and giving up already , ever since kelyn , i have not get into relationships already , although there are people who says i am a hongster , so be it , a guy like me , ugly , nerdy , weak and stupid , how to hong girls ? well , to me , i think i am a coward that only vent my unhappiness and stress here . i know people out there do think bad about me , but as long i don't hear it , i treat it as noting has happened .

peeps put there ! good luck for Olevels (:

Labels: lonely, nerdy, sad, stupid, ugly, weak

hi guys (: this few days have not been updating , sorry ehs , cause im freaking tired this few days luhs ! soccer everyday after school , till 6+ , fun , but tiring (: well , time flies man ! in a blink of an eye , its friday already , in less then a 100 days , olevel will be here , luckily i have already started my revision , slow start though , but nvm , will pick up a faster pace soon ! andandand , today , when i was freaking tired after playing soccer , an unlucky thing happened , reached my house block , waited for the lift for 5mins and i was like " why so slow de ? " then look up , it shows ' maintenance ' -.- imagine with a pair of heavy leg , tired body and a heavy bag , i have to walk up to the 9th floor u know ! F***ing tired can ? was totally sian lor . well , guys nothing much for this week bahs ? shall end here already , tc guys , for schoolmates , seeya around in school (:

things always became like this
like i am all alone , no one to
share my troubles , no one to
turn to , kept everything to myself ,
suffer myself , putting on fake smiles ,
pretend to be lame and idiotic , seriously ,
i dont feel good inside me , i really
dont , but what else can i do but write
it out here ? i have no other
way to express my thoughts .
studies is also making me
worried now , what to do ?
and how should i do ?
i have no answer to it ,
im feeling bad , real bad .

hi guys (: well , this few days have not been updating , sorry larhs ! haas , cause was chiong-ing my batik , oh well , managed to finished it , so now , all that is left , is my prep work (: well , today had my chinese olevel oral , well , not nervous or anything though , just that the question for conversation was unexpected , youth olympic , oh my gosh , not prepared for this , haas , but still managed to sail through , but with some obstructions though , dont think i will get a good score , ): well , went to art after that , went home , well , its late already , and im going to bed soon , cya guys in school behs ! tctctctctc all ! JY FOR OLEVELS 4E4 !!! LETS NOT LEAVE REGRETS !

my batik , nt really nice ehs ? haas .

Isaac Neo
11 Sept 1991
24
Ex-wrps student
Ex-wgs student
Ex NgeeAnnPoly, MTE
NTU, ME

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Ugly,
Nerdy,
Weak,
Stupid,
Thats me,i shall live with it.

I dislike the way i am behaving, but i can't help it,
I wish to numb my feelings, but i can't
I wanna be a somebody one day, hoping for it.

-~~O'Levels L1R4 15~~14 (;
-~~forget about iqeelnylek~~
-more friends !
-her(;
-a better life
-~~1first electric guitar~~

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