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Sad, at myself.

Thanks Jarine for lending me your monster ear (:

Hello! ok, spend my day in an boring and simple way (: woke up in the afternoon, around 3pm or 4pm i guess? then off to 515 to meet friends at around 6pm+. Headed to Jason's house for mahjong, did not play though, just to accompany them (: played cards after that, then went 515 again with Mingyuan. The chat between us 2 was nice, its been long since we had this kind of chat. Went home and did nothing much, game + fb + msn, thats all. Alright, shall end my post here, bye peopleeeee!

Every night, before i go to sleep, i always ask myself,
why can't i just do something right? I am always hesitating,
making wrong decisions, and most of all, always an coward.
I got over kelyn, no doubt, but the phobia is still here.
No one understands how afraid i am, to touch love again.
To touch love again is something really difficult for me.
But like what i have once said, i wanna try, and will try,
but for now, i need time, and courage.
As for the things that someone told me, it really affected me,
alot i can say, although i have mental preparation, it still struck me
heavily, my mind, filled with negative thoughts again,
i know myself well,
i ain't a handsome person, in fact an ugly one,
i ain't a smart person, or rather a stupid one,
i ain't a caring person, rather a hurting one,
this is how i view myself, maybe i am worst in others eyes.
I stand no chance, this, i know very well.

Isaac Neo
11 Sept 1991
24
Ex-wrps student
Ex-wgs student
Ex NgeeAnnPoly, MTE
NTU, ME

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Ugly,
Nerdy,
Weak,
Stupid,
Thats me,i shall live with it.

I dislike the way i am behaving, but i can't help it,
I wish to numb my feelings, but i can't
I wanna be a somebody one day, hoping for it.

-~~O'Levels L1R4 15~~14 (;
-~~forget about iqeelnylek~~
-more friends !
-her(;
-a better life
-~~1first electric guitar~~

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